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Saturday, September 20, 2008 @ Reina's dairy

I sometimes feel that we really need to put a stop to all the thinking and everything. every time you send me sms being rude at all times I rather you not saying it . by saying it you hurt me more than anyone else.. everytime you dont reply my sms and msn msg .. I feel like I am being used by you unknowingly, but I know that you got no feelings for me right from the beginning. I actually I wanted to patch up with you. And guess what cause of your RUDE msges I felt so hurt till I dont weven want to talk to you cause I am very scared to break up again ... At the first time I kiss you , I already knew something which I dont think you know ... I know that we are going to break up somehow ... Today I was thinking about you and I found 30¢ on the floor I thought to my self whether are you worth 30¢ only ? I thought again I would rather throw these coins away and have you even if I say I need rice water or anything that cost these coins . I would also say that though these coins are precious to me I would rather have you ... but now .. as I just read your email .. I felt that there was no need to wait for you anymore , It hurts alot to give up but it hurts even more by waiting for you to just turn your had behind and see me before I start walking without you and see whether I am still waiting for you . I just need you to turn your head behind and take a peep ... not even your head only your eye and I am satisfied. I just sense that you started walking and me starting late ... I dont know where to go . I am just like you no maps no compas just 6 sense to guide me and you to two different directions, I am already starting to walk , getting lost like you are now. Just because of 30¢ change my thinking . I keep on thinking you can sms cystal when you are driving but you cant do that for me, you can sms her in your camp but when I sms you it just turn out to be the opposite .. Please I beg you not to come back and find me cause in the end you will get hurt, like what you say we both persue different things in life already . Though on the way we will miss each other alot , but please do not walk back or turn back it will just hurt me even more . just wanting to put a stop at where we left off and do not go back to the same point again. 30¢ change all my thinking about you already . just becasue of that 30¢ I am finally letting you go . you should be happy right ? just because of 30¢ I am going to treat you the way you treat me . I am just going to treat you like a normal gan gor ... and nothing more .. just because of 30¢ , I am going to forget everything , just because of 30¢ I am going to get on with my own life , just because of 30¢ I will stop waiting for you like I did the other time . just because of 30¢ i dont want to be meant to be with you anymore . just because of 30¢ you sole my first kiss . just because of 30¢ I am giving up EVERYTHING . just because of 30¢ I may want to ignore you . just because of 30¢ I dont want time to tell me neither i want you to tell me . just because of 30¢ I dont want you to say sorry . just because of 30¢ I am doing this just to forget you ... I love you ... but I cannot do anything about it just because of 30¢ . I am sorry but I am not waiting anymore. please get on with yor life .

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Reina KXin Yi

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