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Friday, February 5, 2010 @ Reina's dairy

Dont read todays post, is only for me. Maybe there is one and only first paragraph., if you can see the rest even... maybe not posting (Y)

Gosh I just love Japanese songs (: haha!! But must be those Korean-Japanese kind , like not anime but romance/ emotional kinds, real life (: I think they are nice ((: It has been raining, gosh larh , thought of something terrible. But should I act on it? It is what they call split heart? Sighs, nevermind , keep to this , until I cannot take it. I think I getting addicted to mouse hunt. Somehow? I guess I becoming worldly. Ookays, go to church must pray already (: haha!! I like home-Shimizu (: And plus he so hot. Today went to talk to number 7. Hehe (: Soccer player also. But not interested in him thoughs, he is nice lar..He dont look like from Singaporean. OPPS =x Friendly. The Guo wei said that, Alastair's friend not bad.. Then I said I not interested. haha! My mother WANTS me to marry a guy that is from other country. Yeh, I have to agree that guys from other country are playful, but they are loyal.. haha!! ((: Singaporean's thinking is too weird liao. Just now met WEida gor gor (: He told me is just step 2, there are more steps to go (:

I think single life is better. Somehow.. Maybe for now ,then later I get attach then break? Is it worth? I dont know. Single life for studies and for God alone, if Jia yi is for me , I want to ask God this question, When will we start dating? I never tried asking this question , should I ask? Is it a risk? haha!! Honestly I prefer to keep close friendship than go into relationships. So If I am in a relationship I tend to stay closer to friends. Haha!! But I love him, but love him to what extend a friendship? relationship? haha!! This was what I have been thinking on the way back home (: I think home is the best place I can ever have! (: Cause the doors are always open for me. ALWAYS. (: I need advice. If I get into the next relationship, I will wait wait wait, that guy must at least like me for 1 year. and I cannot cry over him for anything. I mean anything. WEida said is the 2nd part of r/s. must grab on to the fact that he love you. SO NOW I PROCLAIM THAT I LOVE HIM AND I WONT BREAK!

Honestly , Jiayi is too easily jealous. and is really very easy. This could be one reason why I will break with him. But we promise each other 10 years. But to me , I think in future then say bahrs, is too early to say all these.I want to ask God again , is he for me? and yes , when God wants me to start dating. I never really ask God about this... I dont know, is like, he dont understand me fully. Should I just be honest with him? I think I should tonight, make it tonight. But I think he will cry. I will cry too. How do I say.... considering carefully.

I used to think :

My boyfriend must be prefect no flaws.

Now I think: I want a boyfriend who understands me. Does he?

I DECIDED NOT TO DO ANYTHING HARMFUL TO THIS R/S! (: I LOVE JIA YI

I also love this japanese song... but lesser than jia yi , DUH (Y): CLICK

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