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xinyi2105

{/I am lost, really lost'}
Sunday, February 22, 2015 @ Reina's dairy

I am definitely not a normal student.
PSLE 184
O level 11/16
A level ???

Its 7 days count down to A levels results day.
My subject combination is PCM/E
Promotional Exams was really easy to clear:
UBU/E
GP: S

Who thehacks gets this and promotes, definitely, the person thats scores these or worse than these scores will not get promoted, I am NOT READY FOR As.
Who cares, I got promoted

CA:
UDU/U

Mid years:
UEU/U

Prelims
UEU/U

seems consistent?
Let me tell you my journey in JC! Many people think that JC is really easy to get into university, and I have to agree on that. BUT! A levels students wants to get into the course that they want, NOT SOME RANDOM university course. I cried after CA, asking myself whether I should drop out from JC and consulted like SO MANY people, yet they convinced me to stay in JC. Results was evident that I should have dropped out. During Mid years, it was my worst period of my life, I have already missed Poly admission and if I dropped out now I will waste 1/2 year. During Prelims, I told myself, should I just flunk these exams, and go poly in 2015. But at this point in time, I was crying everyday and I dont know what to do with my results. My Us were not ordinary Us, they were 20+ marks. With the additional topics that I told myself that I need to pay attention to....  I only went up like 10+ marks for physics. It seems alot but.... 30/100 its still a U. I felt determined to study, I had counselling sessions with my form teacher and weekly remedial one to one lesson with ALL MY TEACHERS, except my Chemistry and econs, due to various reasons, I didnt consult them. So its about 2 months before A levels and prelims had already ended, I started scheduling my time slots with my teachers. Physics 2 times a week (1 year paper done). Followed by 2 sessions with GP teacher and every monday, wednesday and friday with my maths teacher. I will stay back in school until 9 PM everyday just to complete my work for the next session. It was not like 2 hrs of studying but more of like 8 hrs of studying with two 30 mins break between them for meals. If you think that is easy without falling asleep, try it. 8 hrs! In primary school, I didnt have to study. In Secondary school, I started telling myself that I have to wokr hard, if not I cannot go into the poly course. YET, I didnt go poly. Finally in JC, I had two teachers counselling me back to back such that my emotions are stable and mindset ready to study. Mr Jason Tan and Ms Yang Yarong. Of course, I cleared A levels and I am happy about it. 7 days count down... I really dont know what to do if I flunk.