Honestly, it has been 2 years ever since we have separated. It seems that we both have moved on. I think of you every now and then, and I miss you. I think of how this relationship groomed me into a person with priorities. Let's just say we are very different people now. Seeing you treat your new girlfriend better than me shows how much you love her, and it shows how much you care for her. I am really happy for you that you have moved on. For me, I might have lingering feelings. However, it's no longer love. It's just care and concern, but all these are traits of love right? I have seen your aunt today which have triggered me to think of our relationship. It's very touching to see your family members to visit your grandfather every weekend, to be treated well in your family was something I really want. But you ain't the guy that is meant for me. I realised what I was looking for when I did badly during my JC was comfort and encouragement to carry on. I knew you love me, and cared for me, but we were just growing up. I wanted you to tell me that it was ok to do badly, and not tell me "aiyah, it's normal to do badly".I really didn't want to be compared to SG ' girlfriend when she is a scholar and she is doing very well in JC. Maybe I wanted you to be move involved in my life as how much I wanted to be in yours. It was difficult because we were too young to make decisions. I didnt like how self centred you were, and forced me to eat what you eat. I enjoyed it because I was in love and wanted to suit you. And it was difficult to tell you that I didnt like garlic and chilli. But now, I love chilli. I was exceptionally hurt when you didnt want to go downstairs to buy brayani for me/ with me. I had hidden love for flowers and you realised it on Vday when the waitress gave us one. But, you insisted that I didnt like flowers. Thanks for all the presents, but all I wanted was attention and comfort. I wanted comfort thats why I sleep in your house so often, while you played online games. There are things in the relationship that I appreciate about you and there are things that I detest. But ultimately, looking at you moving on and growing to a better man for another woman makes me happy for the other woman. She would appreciate you better. I am grateful it ended, and I am thankful that it ended. After all, we might be perpendicular lines, we only meet once, but thats all we need to reflect and learn from it.
I miss you, and thanks for letting me grow up during this relationship.
Now it's time to move on, and this is my last letter to you.