I tried to be super positive after things happened, but everything seems to be tumbling down. No one is interested in hearing to my inner voice. Really gave in my best, but end up heart broken.  What's the point of putting effort then? What the point of showing you my vulnerable side and end up getting eaten up? I really hope someone beside me can hear me out, hear my darkest secrets, not judge me and continue to love me.. Maybe this expectation of men is something to be not attainable. Life sucks